DEAR INTIMACY

I have never wanted you near me. To accept you would have meant letting another human close and the thought of that was unbearable. It meant sharing things I was afraid to share. It meant being vulnerable, open, giving. Who would want to be like that? That would mean no space around me, no protection from what you might think of me.

So this means I am afraid of you, Intimacy--and of being open and giving and caring of another human being. But now that I know that, I am carefully allowing you closer, hoping that I will survive trusting in you, and trusting another person.