HEALING

You would think that having had open-heart surgery would turn my thoughts towards spirituality. But it hasn’t. Instead, my mind has been filled—more than ever—with thoughts of the physical. I’ve had a follow-up operation and now, as it turns out, I have to have a third. All this focus on what is physically wrong with me, and the options for repairing that, has kept me thinking right along those lines, as if I was a doctor.

The small voice inside me (the one that whispers so quietly you usually can’t even hear it with the normal noises of life covering it up) is beginning to make itself heard. The voice tells me it wants to know what my problem is—spiritually—and that maybe when I figure that out, the answer to the physical will follow. Listening to the small voice, I am sure, should be my job now otherwise I’ll find myself more lost than I’m already starting to be.